Sometimes I think I can’t handle the immensity of reality. I wish I could easily subscribe to the illusion of now and forever like so many do…
but I don’t. Now is only now, and it is never forever. This especially rings true when a MIND BLOWING synchronicity happens that only serves to remind me of how our lives run out way too fast (our lives are much to short from my perspective).
I was in one of my perpetual work hazes the other day. Making tea, working steadily down my to do list. I had my Sennheiser EH 150′s on with music pumping out of them. I love these headphones. Music is such a huge part of my life. It’s a way for me to relax and let my mind wander. I need these headphones because I simply can not stand listening using those stupid little ear-buds. The left one always seems to be blow out first, and the base reproduction is non existent on top of that. These Sennheisers seemed to fit the bill wonderfully… they are cheap, so I don’t have to worry about them breaking, and they plug into my Ibanez amp for my electric guitar! Awesome, win win in my opinion.
When I had a free moment I decided to go to my parents home and drop off my old ear-buds for my mother. I also remembered a book I left in the basement that I wanted to pickup while I was there. Again, another win win (I am on a roll). So I open the door to the basement…damn! I forgot I did that! When I was a 10 year old kid I drew a picture on the wall leading down to the basement. I dated it the exact time it was when I drew it, the current weekday and date, how old I was, and what the weather was like. Think of it like a time capsule.
The date is what got me.
It was 17 years to the day since I drew that.
To the day. Of all the days, how utterly mind blowing is it that I would happen to notice that picture 17 years to the day. The odds are simply overwhelming to comprehend. Of all the other things I could have been doing, thing I could have been seeing, or places I could have been. I was standing in the downstairs hallway of my parents home looking at an image I drew and dated for the future me… on the exact day that kid made it for me all those years ago.
If for whatever reason I was to believe in a Divine being watching over me, letting me know I am being watched over…yep I would give this moment to let myself believe that.
All those years
Don’t be fooled by the illusion of now and forever. You are going to be an old man or woman soon enough. As I looked upon this image a flood of memories came smashing back of the past 17 years. I remember of people come and gone, of memories come and gone, of places been, of dreams I had, of goals I accomplished. Now so completely and utterly in the past. Vanished.
That time just happened and now it is gone. Wave it goodbye and say hello to now and get ready for the future because it is coming up on you quick. There is nothing you can do about it by the way. No sense holding onto the past, live free from it. Now and forever is an illusion. It is never constant. Change is only constant. People change, things change, you change. If you’re not changing that means you’re stagnant…and that is a suboptimal alternative anyways.
Embrace the flow of reality from here to now, then to beyond. Ditch the illusion of now and forever. Live for today because that is all you have.
I want you to do something.
I want you to set up a time stamp for yourself like I did.
Put down the date, the time, and what you hope for your future self. Think of it like leaving an older you a message.
Try to think about the past 17 years of your life. How different you are now than you were. Is the current you successful? By successful I mean doing work that is important, making a healthy income, and contributing to the greater good? Or are you a cog in a machine? A replaceable part?